For anyone that reads this on a regular, or less than regular basis, you'll notice I've changed the title of my blog and the colour scheme.
When I started my blog, I was really suffering with Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, hence keeping a diary about it.
Recently, I'm not suffering too badly, and I'm trying not to dwell on what I have too much. So, I've not really had the need to keep an illness related diary. This led me on to thinking about my blog in general. Why do I write a blog? Does anyone read it? Does anyone care about it? Do I care if anyone reads it? Hmmm.. the answer to all questions is 42!!
I suppose it's just a place where I can waffle on to myself if need be. I can get things out of my head, although, I'm still careful about what I say sometimes in case any of my family come across my blog. I'd hate to say something that could be taken as derogatory, when really it was just a thought in the big hollow space in my skull.
I wonder, is there a place EVER where I can truly be me? And truly say what I think and feel? I don't think there is. It always falls to my lack of self confidence, and how people judge me. I'm not brave enough to open my mind and heart to expose my true feelings. I'm always concerned about how another person would feel. Of course, I always judge this on how I'd feel if I were the one on the receiving end.. not everyone is an emotional wreck as I can be.. oversensitive and hard on myself taking the guilt far too often when I shouldn't.
So.. see.. Incessant Ramblings suits the title of my blog because that's what I do.. Ramble Incessantly.. now my poor little brain has gone into 'think overdrive' and I'm supposed to be going to bed. Why have humans not evolved a brain switch like a light switch, so that at the end of the night we can just switch the brain off? Hmmm food for thought.